so maybe im just blind or maybe i cant see

hiiaa. well today was a good day i guess you could say. i talked to justin bobby all day (:..i think only a couple of people know who im talking about, but thats basically a code name for someone else. and i had real easy classes today, except english, i failed that test. oh well. nothing really is new in my life right now. just trying to figure out that one guy...haha (:, i dont have much to talk about so ill probably just write another one lataa. peacee.

"life would be perfect if some girls had mute buttons, guys had edit buttons, bad times had a fast forward button, and good times had a pause button"

were still young

hii. yesterday there was no school ! but we had a huricane and tons of rain. so i booked it over to emilys house and we got coffee on the way. then we decided to go sit on the beach, so we grabbed some drinks, a blanket, pajama pants, and sweatshirts and we went and watched all the surfers and just talked about life. and we watched the mokes and base disappear and let the rain fall down on us. it really felt good. then we rode in the giraffe to go get ken as usual. but other than that it was a pretty normal day..anyway whats new with my life....well theres this guy (: haha im not gonna say much about him, but i kinda really like him. i guess we'll just have to see what happens. until next time. peacee.

"just when you think things cant get any worse, they do. and ive learned life is like an hour glass. and when things hit rock bottom. you just have to wait for it to be turned around again.

it seems like everytime you come back home, its just to steel my heart then leave

tequilla shots in the dark scene of the crime

hiii. im blogging from emilys house haha. today was.....well hahah undescribable. probably a good day, i havent had a lot of those lately. first of all my schedule got changed into the classes i want ! which made me extremely happy. and i aced the first test of the 2009 school year !! yay me (: ! then after school i hung out with emily and we went to kenny bobs football practice. haha it was soo funny. the first thing we do is get in the front of the truck because there are three seats up there !! and emilys dad gets in. he looks at me and i just smile at him and he shakes his head and starts complaining about how he likes his arm rests. then i named their big blue truck the giraffe. its sooo tall. your like a giraffe up there ! then we get to kennys football practice and we walked over to wear he was and i noticed the fat kid that lives down the street from me and it was so freakin hilarious because he fell down in the middle of the soccer field. this is like a 100 pound seven year old haha. and then i was telling emilys dad how i can speak in spanish....or in spanisha. basically you add a to the end of everything and la in front everything. voila spanish ! example: la ovena isa beepinga...translation: the oven is beeping. (: and then we were talking about how someone thought me and emily were twins and how we should date a guy because were twins and guys like twins. and then we talked about how emily wants to trade me in for a grizzle bear. she wants a bear as her best friend instead of me. so i chased her around like a bear. and then until ken was done she packed me on her bike in circles. then his practice was over and it was back to the giraffe (: and again her dads face and my smile. then we went to get pizza and argued about weather bobs or bostons is better...bostons is the winner ! hahah and then we bought butterfingers and hid it from him until he found it in the mini fridge. and that was pretty much my day haha. now its the first weekend and hopefully this next week goes by fast. we have wednesday off (: until next time peacee.

"every story has an end, but in life every end is just a new beggining"

im fallin head over heels for you

ahh its been awhile since ive blogged. so i started school. ew. i only really like a few of my classes and teachers, but hopefully this school year goes fast and i can get through it. i really have nothing to say, im sorry. ill try and write some more tomorrow. peace.

"and maybe it is hard, but so what no one said life was gonna be easy"

and if i told you i loved you couldnt that be enough ?

sorry about the lack of bloggage, havent had much time lately. ive been running around like crazy trying to prepare for monday, new student orientation. mental note; next year i am not gonna be a chairperson for this. its crazy. period. anyway nothing really new over here in hawaiii. school starts on tuesday thoughh...ew...haha i love summer but some of me wants to go back to school. this past year has gone by fasttt. and ive just been thinking lately about how much of my life has changed. its like a new life. a big ajustment and i dont really like change. but lately its been coming more and more and more. i know everyones gonna change but does it all have to be at the same exact time ? its almost too much to handle. sometimes i wish my life would just stay still, paused, frozen. not right now. but in the past....try a year and a half or maybe two weeks ago ? yeah that would be good. i was lucky enough to go back to where my heart still is. i wish i could just stay there forever. the 19th of july. but im growing and im learning that most of the time i cant get what i want anymore and i have to work at everything harder and the harder i fall the more it hurts. but i keep going back to the quote "sometimes good things fall apart, so better things can fall together" and im hoping something better is falling together right now because im in need of it more than ever. putting up this smile isnt working as much as it used to. the zoning out is getting worse. but im gonna keep wishing for that something better. and hoping soon it comes. till next time, peace.



"she will chase you around for a while but theres going to be a day when shes gonna stop running in circles around you shes going to get over you and at that very moment youre going to wish you had let her catch you"

so tell me what your bestfriend knows

hello bloggers

im sorry i didnt write a blog yesterday. so yesterday my dad acused me of sneaking out at my friends house !!! so it wasnt even my own house and we didnt even sneak out !!! he is soo dumb im really really pissed at him. but today we had to train facilitators for new student orientation..yeah more student council..sooo much fun. but during lunch everyone was making fun of emily and her "dirty dancin" with her man friend at camp. it was sooooooooo funny !!! but nothing really is new in my life, all ive been doin is student council...school starts next week AHHH ! we are sophomores. but now me and emily are gonna put on a cooking show so ill blog lataa. peacee.

"life isnt about finding yourself, its about creating yourself"

i was prayin that you and me might end up together

hiii. lets start with yesterday. me and emily, bffl, played sims 3. we cant agree on anythingggg !!! and apparently putting claw foot tubs in the middle of a room is "fashionable"...its dumb. who ever came up with that did it because they probably couldnt figure out what else to do with this tub. anyway then we were really really facinated with the guy riding his bike on the roads and stuff it was pretty cool. we modeled the guy after jessie on big brother, yellow wife beater and all. this guy has to do everything to the "extreme". extreme shower, extreme work out, extreme swim. everything. and girl is a vegetarian which is kinda cool. today we are gonna make her preggers. now for today. we went to student council from like nine in the morning till two...we were supposed to stay till three, but i had a dermatologist appointment and emily is lucky and got to leave with me. i hate my dermatologist in my opinion he is an idiot. and yells at me for "attacking" acne. whatever hopefully it will go away after he switched my medicine. but the guys a dummy so probably not. for me and emily this week is matching week. its on our summer list of things to do. so we show up to student council in tank top and plaid and mr.lau (student council advisor/teacher...aka laulau) got mad at us because we didnt tell everybody else what to wear. haha so he went off about what to wear on wedensday so were all matching. the whole student council. thats just greattt. also on the topic of student council i just had to deal with this insane guy for like six hours. dumb ron. he thinks hes a vampire...enough said. he also tells us that he is a pro kick boxer and surfer and gets to hang out with all time low...yeah okay. oh and apparently he has a girlfriend..we call him my stalker though. for awhile he had the creepest "crush" on me...im not even sure if crush is the right word for it. but he has to comment on everything you say, even if your across the room. its really rediculous. and sooooooo annoying. but this is getting really long haha so until next time, peacee.

"so i guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons and maybe we'll never know most of them"

those skinny jeans i bought for you

hello blogging world. im really excited because this is the first day that i didnt wake up at five in the morning !!!! hell yeah (: its probably because i didnt get home and go to bed till like on though..but still its an improvement. anyway yesterday my family decided to be spontanious and bought a new computer ! the one in the office is falling apart, the sound doesnt even work anymore and it was gonna need a 100 dollar video graphics card so we deicded we might as well just buy a new one. so now i have sound and can play sims three (: and i dont have to do everything on the computer in my room or this laptop that im on right now. anyway im really excited about itt. i guess im having a chill day all i gotta do is go to church sometime today, but tomorrow its back to student council. anyway my room is in despret need of a clean so im gonna go do that, till next timee, peacee.

"always hold your head up, but keep your nose at a friendly level"

And she is the L and he is the O for us, liars out there. And she is the V and he is the E for the violence in everyone

hiii. i just realized something. the people in my family are not breakfast people. i normally dont worry to much about eating breakfast but im hungry and there is nothing to eat. i guess i could get on my bike and go down to kalapawai market to get a bagel or muffin or something, but that would require showering, getting dressed and ready for the day, getting on my bike and getting my lazy butt on like a five minute bike ride...but i dont really feel like doing that. so i guess ill wait till lunch. anyway my parents spend the night downtown so its been a chill morning. just me, nathaniel and americas next top model. haha poor nathaniel has to deal with all my shows even though there are six tvs in my house and he could easily watch any other one of them. but i think he secretly likes the show. anyway, i went to feed my fish this morning and i realized one of them was missing. this is the SECOND time i have lost a fish. inside a fish tank...i have no idea how that happens. i think this one is dead though. oh most of you probably dont know about my history with fish. so ive always wanted another pet after giving away my dog like...four years ago haha. so around christmas time my family went to this sushi restaurant that has the big flat screen tv with digital fish. we were talking about presents and i decided i wanted a fish. i spend days begging them and even went as far as making a power point, which i will add the file to this post. so christmas morning they came out with two fish. my first fish ever. im an office junkie. its my favorite show in the whole world. so i named my first fish dwight and michael. michael was stupid. when you fed them he wouldnt notice food was in the tank till dwight rammed into him. it was kinda entertaining though. after about a month dwight died because i forgot to switch the filter. after about another two weeks i got two new fish, pam and jim. soon after that michael died because the filter got turned off when our power went out. next i realized pam was suicidal. have you ever heard of a suicidal fish ?? well pam knew how to get out of the suction of the filter but decided she would get herself stuck anyway. one day i just god tired of turning off the filter when she would go to it and let her die. for awhile i just had jim but for my birthday my friend ben got me two new fish, kevin and angela. angela died the next day unknown reasons. now i have jim and kevin...but i lost jim and i think hes dead.. anyway sorry for making you read all of this. ill go now hahah peaceee.

"and sometimes things just fall apart so others can fall together"

Nathaniel Jacob Scott

hellooo. nathaniel asked me to write a blog about him so here goes nothinn. blonde hair blue eyes gettin tall and skinny. he likes long walks in the park..haha just kiddingg he likes skating and surfin and all that stuff and his new thing with sailing. my friends want to marry him..its kinda creepy. hes a tad annoying at times, likes loud things like drums and knows how to make me scream. but hes my brother and hes supposed to know that. hes 13 going on 14 but it still feels like hes 10 to me. but he is no longer my little chub muffin bubba. hes growing and getting in his teen years and were still gettin crazy. maybe he will start to tell me about his life and we can get closer (: haha maybe jsut maybe. i think hes playing video games as usual...wouldnt suprise me. but anyway i think thats enough about my lovely brother. love you natieee. peacee.

"The best way to get a puppy is to beg for a baby brother - and they'll settle for a puppy every time." ~Winston Pendelton

trouble in a tank top

oh im cool writing two blogs in one day (:. i keep telling my mommy how i like this whole blogging thingy. but anyway today is my daddys 40th birthday ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY ! i guess ive had a pretty good day today. i slept over at athenas last night so when we woke up we made pancakes and watched tyra talk about her two favorite subjects; black people and sex. oh and we decided that this school year we are gonna be PERFECT students and do all our work...and do homework together over skype. which my mom thinks isnt gonna work very well because were just gonna goof off...but ill prove her wrong. then after getting ready for the day and watching a little GSN, i met up with my brother, nathaniel, at the golf course so that my mommy could pick us up. so i got to talk to him and see whats going on with him and his lifee. then we went to my daddys office to have lunch with him. hes in the navy and all the j.o's (junior officers for those of you who dont know) gave him a bunch of gag gifts on his desk like depends and fiber and prune juice...but i think mom was seriously concidering some of this stuff...ew. haha. then we went and picked up my daddys cake for the party they are going to tonight. which is causing them to sleep downtown so house to myselff ! party over hereee(: just kiddinggg...maybe. :P. so then me and my mommy went shopping for a little bit and now im homeeee. but i have to babysit tonight...a kid named long..who names a kid LONG ? hahah. but now this blog is unnecessarily long and i should probably be doing something else...like watching tyra :). hahah peaceee.

"dont ever listen when people say hes not good enough for you because truly, you are the only one who knows how he makes you feel"

high on life

helloo (:

first of all if you ask athenas mom, she has never seen me serious. and if you ask her brother's friends, i am always at her house. so we have a couple of rules while were at her house.

1. if you are laughing, you are not aloud to stand up. you must sit on the floor until you can control your self
2. beware of the counter gremlin..he will eat you.
3. according to the slip and slide company, we are obese and not aloud to use it..unless you are modeling on it like they do on top model
4. we never sleep in athenas room..only maxs room
5. when we make pancakes, athena always pours and i always flip and they must be under cooked
6. we watch tyra everyday at three and make fun of it
7. we have to pretend were in tyra rehab
8. if you are imitating a guy, you must use a "man voice"
9. when we eat dinner we have to use the stuff we learned at "ediquet school". boobs out.
10. at the beggining of our talk show, you have to do the ATHENA AND NICOLE SHOW theme song

and thats pretty much it. we get called crazy a lot and were always on the floor because we cant stop laughing, but its all good. anyway i have nothing else to say haha so peacee (:

"its not about worrying whats down the road, or where youll end up, its about enjoying where you are right now"

this nights a perfect shade of dark blue

helloo blog world (: forget facebook. i wanna blog everyday.

Well i convinced athena, my bffaeeeeee, to get a blog. she thinks shes keeping me from feeling like a loser...but shes wrong but im gonna let her think she is helping..so thank you atheni (: . anyway today i babysat with athena. a screaming girl and a girl who says actually before EVERYTHING...example: actually my mothers says we put the bowls here. it was kinda annoying haha. me and athena were planning on sleeping outside in a tent today but looking at the "beautiful" hawaii weather probably not. so instead were gonna bring out our inner child and make a fort with pillows blankets and chairs and sleep in that instead. i miss kindergarden. and naps. and play time...but were in high school and we still have recess. but thats hawaii for you. i just got back from newport, rhode island. i used to live there. im really jet lagged right now. ive been waking up at like four in the morning, yeah not fun. but anyway i have nothing else to tell you today. peacee.

"and in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make"

hello blog world (:

So i've been meaning to start this blog for the longest time and finally i buckled down and set it up. Oh, by the way, im nicole. im fifteen years old, trying to survive high school, and just live life. im completely obsessed with all time low. im lucky enough to live in hawaii with my family. but my life is pretty normal with the occasional spike of excitement. anyway, back to the blog. im not writing this and trying to get a bunch of people to read it. honestly i dont care how many people want to read this and see what the hell is going on with my life at the moment. im doing this more to just write...i guess like a journal ? maybe. haha. but i guess we'll just see what happens with this whole blogging thing. idk how often im gonna get to write these blogs, but ill try to keep it pretty regular. anyway. peace (:

"sometimes you need to step outside, get some air, and remind yourself of who you are and where you want to be"